Leaving today!!!!

So,, here it is at 12:15 PM... I'm just starting to pack now.... Heading to the airport at around 5:30 or so... Flight leaves at 6:45.... Yup, starting to get a little excited/nervous!!!!

So I also just noticed that I hadn't written in my blog yesterday... so I should probably update on that first.... Yesterday was alright... got better as the day went on mostly... So I woke up at 6 AM,,, called my boss at 6:24, and he said that we were working that day... So needless to say, I didn't have the greatest start of the day... So yeah, ended up shoveling snow off of the charlottetown mall for 7 hours.... Then Emily came and picked me up, and we went to her place... Saw the new baby goats!!! lol, 2 little 1 day old baby goats... they were pretty cool... soo friggen tiny!!! but cool, so we chilled with them for a bit and had a little puff... Then we went back to my place, changed up and got our stuff ready for Hot Yoga!!! Always a good time there!! I love hot yoga!!! and it was kinda cool this time, cuz we went and took our spot in like the middle of the room!!! it was our first time being that close to the front and the mirrors.. I think I liked it too... its good having multiple angles on your body... So that was a really really good class!!! got a great stretch out, and lots a lot of water weight!!!! man do ya ever swet a lot at hot yoga!!! its ridiculous!!! So yeah, anyway, after that we just went back to my house, and watched a few episodes of man vs wild.... then yeah, Emily went home and I went to bed... I wanted to get a nice long sleep last night, but it turns out I can't sleep to well right now.. lol, I dunno what it was,,, but I woke up at like 5,6, and 7 am... then I ended up waking up at9 and staying up after that... Had a little puff around 10... started making a check list of things i'll need for Ontario around 11,,, and then yeah,, not much till right now... So yeah,, thats it,,, your all caught up on whats going on right now.... I'm not quite sure when the next time i'll be able to post a blog,,,, it may not be till after the weekend is over,.,, but if not i'll try to post ASAP.... Alright.. I'm out for now.. so till the next time...

L8a Days...

Little upset right now...

so bad news.... My opponent dropped out.... How fucking shitty is that???? Like seriously man... 4 days before the fight and now you choose to drop out!?!?!?! Thats fucking lame man... I was so stoked to fight early on saturday... Now I don't fight till late late on Sunday!!!! Like seriously,,, I was going to be the 10th fight of the tournament,,, and now I'm like the 5th last fight of the tournament... And I prolly only have 1 fight... and I'll be fighting a guy who fought and won the day before,,, so he'll be sore and stuff, and i'll be fresh and ready to go... Not even fair... Fuck!!! I dunno if I'll even get a belt of out it... its not like I had to get to the top, I'm just there now... Uhh... Not very happy about this.... but I dunno, I guess Barry is working on getting me a fight of some kind,,, I may have to fight in the Full Contact Division, instead of low kick, which I specialize in... so that basically means no leg kicks... wtf kinda fight is that gonna be??? I hate full contact!!! Not kicking to the legs is just not fun!!!! Ah..... I just don't know what to think about all this now... I was soo soo excited.... and now,,, i dunno...,. Bahh!!!!

Whatever,, I got class 2night,, so i'll talk to barry then,,, figure shit out... So yeah,, till later....

L8a Days...

Hot Yoga

So... 11:22.... watching wedding crashers.... Emily is passed out in my bed... We hung out again tonight... But yeah,, I'll get into that later.. lets start from the beginning...

So I woke up this morning at like 8 something... couldn't really get back to sleep very well, but stayed in bed till 12 or so... then i decided to get up,,, ,,, tried not to eat anything for a while... ended up only eating a bagel and 2 toasters stroodle... So that tied me over for a while!!! Then around 3ish i think it was I hopped on the elliptical.. did that for half an hour, which was sweet!! was only planning on going for 20 mins, but ended up going further, which was great!!! Then at around 4:30, I finally got a responce to my yoga invitaion on facebook... Amanda Decided to go with me which was sweet..,, so she came and got me around 5,,, went to hot yoga for 5:30... Had a wicked wicked class!!!! Such a good time at yoga!!! Then Emily ended up picking me up... we headed back to my place.. then decided to go for some Thai food... MMMMmmmm Thai Food!!!! and got some scratch tickets.. didn't win anything 2night tho.... Then we got a little puff on and watched wedding crashers... and that pretty much brings me to now.... So yeah... Em,,, and me,,, are.... sooo..... weird... lol... I dunno.. I know nothing is going on... but yeah... I dunno, I'm not sure... like I'm diggin' whats going on right now.. like nothing is happening,,, but we're still really close... I dunno,,, I guess I'm still a little "upset" about all the shit that happened... and I'm still kinda wondering who and what happened... I know its none of my business... but it kinda is... and I dunno... Like... I prolly don't even know the guy,,, not like it matters... I mean,,, it could be the guy she brought to kickboxing that time,,, or maybe its someone I know... nah..... I dunno.. it doesn't matter... its just weird that she is totally apposed to talking about it at all... Kinda makes me wonder why not,, but again,, shouldn't matter... none of my business.... ahhh well,, I'm just looking to far into this,, like I usually do... whatever,,, i gotta just put all this stuff behind me,,, worry about the here and now,,, worry about what I'm going to do with whats going on now... So yeah,,, sorry, i just needed to vent for a sec i guess... I really have nothing to be upset about... life is pretty good, and the fight is getting closer and closer... my focus has to be on that right now... so yeah, everything else is on the backburner... Focus on Fight... F on F.... Got it....

Well,,, Wedding Crashers is over... so I'm gonna crawl into bed for a bit... So yeah,, till later...

L8a Days...

Something I forgot to Mention...

So yeah,,, Obviously we did not make it to Truro today... kinda shitty,,, but kinda ok too.... But yeah,, something about yesterday that I totally forgot to mention somehow.... I got a job offer!!! Yeah man,,, ME! got a job offer,,, kinda weird, but kinda really cool at the same time... Still don't know if I'll take it or not,,, lots of perks,,, and lots of downsides... but ya gotta look at the big picture in these kinds of situations... and really, I don't know if I could turn this down or not.... So my buddy G, that I used to work with out west e-mailed me the other day... said he might have a job offer for me... so I got all excitted and e-mailed him back saying cool, and to get me the details and all that... so then yesterday he was online and we started chatting... Anyway, long story short, theres a new shop opening up in Edmonton, and he's working for them now,, and they asked him if he knew of anyone who would be an asset, and the first person he said was me! lol, ME!,, so that made me feel pretty damn good... anyway, he's going to be me alot more details soon,, but he told me to think about it, cuz they may need a person very very soon.... SO I told G that I would be busy for at least 2 weeks, but any time after that I could go.... So yeah... I don't know what is going to happen here... I would love to make some killer money again for a while... that would be really cool... and really,, I have nothing keeping me here,,, it would kinda suck to have to quit the roofers,, they've been really good to me... but really, thats all I got here,,, maybe kickboxing... but I could still train out there... find a club to get involved in... then if I come back in a few years, I would be all trained up and ready to rock it... Ahh well, getting a head of myself... But yeah,, definetly have some stuff to think about... And if I were to go out this time... I'd just bring what little shit I have, and start over out there.. fuck the computer, and pretty much everything else,, I'd bring clothes and thats about it... I'll buy a laptop or something out there.. Figure it out... I just wanna make a bunch of money, and save it! then if I come back next time, I'll be set.... Anyway,, just some shit to think about I guess... Anyway, Im gonna get going, grab some breakfast and stuff before kickboxing today... So yeah, till the next time,,, I'll keep it posted....

L8a Days...

2:04 AM....

OK, so its late,, I'm just about to go to bed, but figured i could write up a quick blog about what I did today.. so this will be quick...

Woke up at noonish... watched some Burn Notice for a few hours... iced my foot for 10 mins,, put the heat to it for 10 mins,,, ice,,, heat,,, ice,,, heat,,, for 45 mins or so... then it felt so good, that I figured I'd do some time on the elliptical.... 20 solid mins at a good pace on a hard setting was pretty sweet... it was weird just how much I swettedd... anyway, so that was good... then I watched more Burn Notice till around 9ish, when Emily came to pick me up... then we went to the store to buy stuff for the kick boxing party... then we went to the kick boxing party... ok time there... got to talk to Barry a bit... talked to Penny quite a bit... Fun woman she is! lol... just good to see her kinda tipsy,, she was fun... Then yeah, Emily gave me a lift home at 11:30 ish.. dropped me off, then she left right away... then yeah, I watched more Burn Notice...lol, almost done tho... only like 7 more episodes and I'm fully caught up...

But yeah, supposed to go to Truro tomorrow morning... but judging by how bad the roads are now... and the amount of snow that is supposed to come... I don't think we'll be going anywhere tomorrow...except to our own class, lol,... If its not too shitty out...

But yeah, thats whats happening... and I should prolly get to bed just in case we do go to truro in the morning,,, supposed to leave around 9 AM,, so yeah, I'm gonna head to bed now.. be up in 6 hours.... Till later...

L8a Days...

Re- edit...

So not this past blog,,, but the one before it I took down... well its saved,, but after re reading it,,, I decided that I was a little angry at the time, and I wrote some stuff that maybe I shouldn't of written down and went public with... so if your wondering why it says " what happened since my last blog,,," and the last blog is like from the day before... you know whats happening... lol, fried....

Foot is still sore...

So here it is... 1:15 AM.... I just got out of the shower,,, iced my foot for 20 mins or so before that... gonna head to bed here after this blog.... So lets see, what happened since last blog... Uhh, well, I had supper at around 6ish.... went to kick boxing at 7:30,,,, got a ride in with Emily which was a little awkward.... ohh and by the way, I smoked prolly half an hour or so before I had supper, so I was still a little high by the time i went to kick boxing,, which was not a good idea,, but whatever, its done and gone, and I can't do anything about it now.... So yeah, got to kick boxing... had a pretty good class,,, sweated a lot... was down to 151 on Barry's scale,, which was cool,, I gotta drop a few more pounds and just get comfy at that weight... Then after kick boxing,, Emily gave me a lift to Ryans place,,, then we watched 3 episodes of The Office,, smoked some magic,,,, the emily gave me a lift home,,, we stopped at sobeys and got some "snacks"... yogurt and oranges,,, and bluebarry's,,,, yeah good stuff... then yeah, I got home and iced my foot, and watched some Burn Notice... almost done of this season,,, But yeah... my foot is kinda really sore.. I don't wanna admit it,, but its starting to concern me a bit... Like, at class 2night,, I thru a pretty hard power kick, and it instantly hurt my foot,,, like, snap! bamn! hurt my foot.... so thats kinda shitty,,, I wanna take 2morrow really slow, and try to stay off of it,, I just hope it rains, so Dad won't make me go shovel the roof of the french school.... I really don't wanna do that, then go to spar on Sunday in Truro.... ohh yeah,... forgot to mention that.... So Sunday, Emily and I are driving up to Truro to spar with that club... should be interesting... I'm kinda looking forward to the sparring,, but not really the drive.... It's a little weird between Em and I right now... I'm still a little upset about what happened today,, but I guess I'm mostly over it... like I said earlier,, its done and done,, nothing I can do about it now... Ahh whatever,, I'll think more about it later... But for now,, I think thats it... I'm going to go to bed... So yeah, Till later...

L8a Days...

another short blog....

Alright,, this is gonna be quick.. Im just getting ready to go to the pool, but Daves drivign, so it'll prolly be a little bit..

So yeah, I didn't work today... Told my boss this morning that I wanted to stay off the foot for a few days atleast,, hoping it heals soon... So yeah I just sat around today,, didn't do much of anything,,, iced the foot for a bit, and watched alot of TV shows.... Then Emily came over for a bit,, watched "The Town",,, alright movie,, but it did not live up to the hype that I heard... but whatever,,, alright movie...

But yeah, thats about all I got to say,, not much Iknow, but Im about ready to go to the pool,,, then Trivia after... so yeah, I should get ready... So yeah, till 2morrow... I'll write later

1 week till I get on a plane to go to Toronto,,, 9 more days till the fight....

L8a Days...

Not much to say

I just remembered that I didn't write a blog yet today... hmmmm.. prolly because today was very very uneventfull!!!!

Lets see... I woke up at 6 like I always do... called work at 6:30,, Jean said I didn't have to work today, but we'll prolly be working tomorrow... so I went back to bed till around 9 when I got a txt from Emily saying that her school was cancelled and she was going home,,, so thats when I realized how shitty it was outside... so I went back to bed till noonish... Got up,,,, didn't really do anything all day,, kinda watched some tv shows and stuff... I was kinda starting to look forward to kickboxing,, but then that got cancelled too,, so I decided to go for a walk.... then after that I came home and watched a few more tv shows,,, and that pretty much leads me up to now..... SO yeah,, I did pretty much nothing today.... didn't work out,, didn't do anything... kinda shitty waste.... Although I did ice my foot for a bit... should prolly do it some more,,, but whatever... I'm going to bed now... looks like I'll have to work tomorrow.... not looking forward to that at all....

whatever,, till then...

L8a Days...

Another good day

Yeah I know,,, it's weird that I think I had a good valentines day... but I think I actuelly had a good one!!!

So I woke up this morning at 6 AM,,, yes only a few hours after my last blog entry at 4 something in the morning... and called work,,, Asked Jean if we were working today or not, and he said yes... I really figured he wouldn't be, but regardless I told him that I was too sore from kick boxing to go.. which was not even close to a lie! I was soo friggen sore when I woke up this morning!!! So yeah, I ended up not working today... went back to bed at 6:45ish, and then woke up at 9 something to a txt from Em... She wanted to know if I wanted to go to the gym to work out with her today,,, but I was still to sore at 9 to work out... So I told her the only thing I could do today was go swimming... so thats what we ended up doing! lol... It was good tho, cuz her foot was still sore/swollen from yesterday too,, so swimming was prolly the best choice for both of us!. So yeah at around 1:30 she came here to get me and we went to swim at the Cari Pool.... Had a good little work out there.,, Then we got hungry so we went down to get some Thai food!!! and holy shit was it ever GOOD!!!!! I'm definetly going to have to go back there, cuz that was some of the best cury chicken ever!!!!, so we got the thai food and just went to victoria park and sat and ate our food there,,, had a little puff and chill before we came back to my house... but she had to go home early to do a sleigh ride, so she pretty much just dropped me off and went home... And that pretty much leaves me to now... sorta, I watched a few episodes of californiacation, but thats about it... Anyway, just figured I'd do a little recap of the day... and it was a good day!... So yeah, for now I think thats about all I gotta say... Ohh,, I have 1 more thing... I didn't even notice,, but Emily pointed it out to me... I got my first semi black eye from kick boxing!!! little purple spot in the corner of my left eye... kinda cool I guess.. I know I got it from Ryan, one of the National Champions, so thats pretty fucking cool....

so yeah, thats it!!! lol,, till next time

L8a Days...

Great Day, Short blog...

So yeah, here it is 3:59 AM... I'm still up yes.... not going to get into the why's and what nots,, but I just figured I should write a little something about the greatest day ever!!!!

So yeah, today at kickboxing, 2 guys and 1 girl from Truro came down to show us a few things... and wow!!! what a fucking wicked time!!! all the fighters got to get special training and stuff from Ryan (national Champion). Then after class was over, over an hour long (which was great!), we got to spar!!! Yeah! ME, Sparring with a national champion of my wieght class!!!! how fucking lucky am I to get that experience in??? I mean of corse he tuned me in something fierce! but shit, it was such a good learning curve! He picked me apart like I was... Idunno what, but he definetly showed me a lot of great things!!! So yeah... that was great! went 5 rounds in a row with him near the end, which was awesome, cuz everyone was getting tired and stuff, but him and I just kept going.. and by the end of it, everyone there was just watching us 2 spar... so good!!! so good

Then after class we all went to East side Marios... got to have some good food and chat with them. Talked about the fights coming up in 12 days.... They're all fighting in it too, so we should see them there! So pumped!!! I'm just beyond happy right now... even those my nose hurts, my elbows are bruised,, and my ankle is killin me... I feel soo fucking good right now....

Then of course after we were done supper, Emily gave me a lift home,, Super cool of her... then we went for a little "walk"... the we just sat and chilled/talked for over 3 hours in her car... just about random stuff... lots of good topics and stuff discussed... just an overall great time/talk....

Yeah,,, thats about all I wanna/gotta say... I know I could elaborate a lot more on a lot of things that happened today... but I figure I should prolly try to get those last 2 hours of sleep in before I call work... and I know its supposed to snow and rain a bunch 2morrow,,, I have a funny feeling that i'll be working... So,,, hopefully not, but just in case... I'm going to bed..

Great Day..

Better night....

good times....

L8a Days...

feet are sore!!!

So yeah,, feet are killin!!! today was my second day in a row shoveling snow all day,.. for work... and let me just say, when your shoveling snow all day, like all all day, you get tired!!! so needless to say, I worked pretty hard yesturday, so today I wanted to take it pretty easy... but NOOO!!!, fuck man, what a rough day... My feet are just soo soo sore!!! I didn't even go to kickboxing, which is SHITTY!!!, I need to go as much as possible,, only 15 more days... uhh,,, well hopefully this foot thing clears up by sunday... I gotta spar with a guy who was canadian champion a few years ago.. so that should be intersting...

SO yeah, I didn't really do a "workout" persay... but I did work alot of my legs and arms over the past 2 days,, so I don't feel too bad...

Lets see,,, what else... well, instead of going out to Jarods place with Ryan and them, I decided to stay in... and do nothing... pretty wicked choice there... ah well, atleast I get to sleep in my own bed instead of crashing on an uncomfy couch.... plus I'm hoping Dave is coming home 2night so we can go for a smoke... i spose I don't really need him to go for one, I have my own... but he said he was coming back tonight.... I tried to get Emily to come over after kickboxing to go for a toke, but she didn't want to. Thats cool, I just wanted someone to smoke with ... as much fun as I have on my walks alone, it is cool having company... ... maybe I should just roll up a little one and go for a little smoke... if I can walk... I don't wanna have to wait till everyone goes to bed so I can smoke on the deck,, that just sucks!!!! bah,, i'll work on the rollin part.... Well, I think Im done for now... I may write a new blog later,,, after the smoke.... Till then

L8a Days...

so weird thing just happened....

So I just lied down in my bed... and me,, the guy with the worst nose for smelling ever!!! what do I smell?? Emily... I guess she was sitting on my bed long enough for her smell to stay... oh god what a smell.... lol, I'm sure this is coming off as pretty creepy, but she smells soo good!!! I don't know what it is specifically,,, I think its just her in general, but man, soo good... thats kinda why its hard not just grab her and kiss her when shes close.,., Like I a few times 2night I wanted to soo bad!!! I keep telling myself that I'm not into her anymore, and I gotta stop thinkin about her and stuff... but everytime I see her, I still think of all the wicked stuff we've done together... She's still super fucking hot in my mind,,, and I know what she can do... its hard not to be attracted to that... But I gotta... I guess... i think... I'm not really even sure actuely... Like,,, I know,,, well I think I know anyway,,, that we both really wanna just make out and stuff,,, but we both also don't want to?? I dunno... I'm so confused on whats going on... SO I figure i'll just let her figure out what she wants, and go with that... If she wants to resist doing things,or whatever,,, then cool,,, I'll try too... but if she just goes for it sometime,,, I don't think I could actuelly pull away... like... I think I would want that.... but I just don't know... lol, this is dumb,, I can't really describe this shit in words,,, I don't think Im even describing it good in my own head,,, and it prolly sounds dumb,,, so I think I'm just going to stop here... and yeah,,, gonna go back to my sweet smelling bed... prolly have a good sleep 2night..... so yeah,, I'm done for now...

till Later...

L8a Days...

A good day...

SO yeah... good day... its now 9:57 PM... Got home from a little smoke around half an hour ago.. but i'll get to that later...

So I went swimming... with Emily... Good swim!!! seriously tho, like I hadn't been swimming in a long long time,, prolly closer to a year to years... and yeah,, we swam for around an hour, and I was tired!!! we just did the lanes for a while,,, then we just treaded water for a while,,, which was surprisingly tiring.. but good good work out... I really think I should try to do that more if I can set it up at all... my ankle kinda cramped up for a little bit,,, then got sore for a little while,, but now it feels great!!! and even my wrist hurt for a little bit, but now it feels alright.. well not great, but alright....

So yeah, that was swimming,,, then of corse we went to the hot tub for like 5-10 mins at the very end... and yeah, the whole time we were swimming, we talked a fair amount.,, just about regular shit,, mostly our fights and stuff... but yeah, we totally just chilled, and talked, and it was good... very good... then after swimming we were hungry. So we went to subway, I got a sub, she got a deli. lol deli.... then we had the good idea of watching the movie The Fighter... so we came back to my house,,, little weird for the first little bit,,, especially when she came into my room,, and I set it back up the way it used to be, cuz thats the best for watching movies on my computer. Then for some reason I could not find the fighter anywhere!!! it was weird... so we watched a few episodes of the Office.. then I finally found the fighter,,, and we watched that.... but yeah,,, we did lots of talking,, and it was like good talking... we didn't really get into "us". it was just like 2 friends talking.... It was good... ... Then she tipped over the water again... lol,,,, kinda shitty tho because it was with her hurt toe... Oh yeah,, I don't think I explained the whole toe thing... or maybe I did... I can't really remember.. I've been writting in this blog so much lately... hahah Weird!!!!

Anyway... I don't really have anything to do 2night, and it is already 10:08.... I didn't do any working out today besides the swimming... which Im still very very happy with,, infact, its more cardio then I normally do... so thats good,,, but I think I'm going to do some stretches for 10-15 mins,,, then maybe head to bed!.... yup, that sounds like a wicked idea!!! So yeah... I think thats about it! Good day....

Very good day...

L8a Days...

Random Rant....

So another snowday... No work today means im bored all day!!! Well I should work out sometime today, do something...

Ya know what i miss?? I miss writting down whatever the hell I feel like and not have to worry about what people say... Its wierd.... but for some reason lots of ppl know about my blog now... I don't have any idea how much anyone really reads it, but I still get "comments" every now and then... I'm thinking about starting up a new blog, and just not telling anyone about it... we'll see tho,, I can keep shit bottled up inside...

So I guess I'm going swimming in an hour or so!.. Yeah wierd... swimming,, I can't remember the last time I went... well,,, sorta,,, last time I "tried" to go swimming, was when I stayed at the super 8 hotel with Emily that time... We went down to their pool, but it was too friggen cold so we just sat in the hot tub for a while. lol, good times... Hopefully I still remember how to swim. I was never really good at it.. but whatever,, good workout... so yeah, this should be interesting...

Alright... what else is going on... well my wrist is still sore... going on 3 weeks now... kinda really shitty... I know working it at kickboxing definetly is not helping... but I can't just not use my right hand... maybe i'll take it slow on the heavy bag for a while... my "schedule" that I made has it set up so I do Ab Ripper X every second day, and a 1/2 hour on the heavy bag every off day... so I'll prolly just cut that out, and see if it improves... I mean I can still punch and shit,,, its just super sore after... and I can't do certain things at work,,, just twist and rotate it certain ways.... And my foot/ankle.... still fucking sore too!! thats been over 3 weeks running now... but atleast I remember the exact thing that happened to hurt it... stupid Aaron blocking my head kicks!!! lol,,, but yeah, I musta just caught him perfectly in the arm or something, cuz it just slipped thru my shin guard, and my boots,,, right smack in the middle.... so yeah, that still fucking hurts,,, and it sucks alot not being able to throw hard kicks with my power leg... thats basically what I'm known for... well, known in my class anyway.... So I guess as of lately, i've been working on quick hand movement... lots of punch combos and stuff.. really wanna work on my quickness... but its such a hard thing to train... how do you train to be quicker??? bah, i dunno, i'll figure it out....

But anyway,, I know its still early, but I should prolly get ready,, my ride is coming at 12:30 to go swimming,, 12:10ish now... So yeah, heading swimming... then I guess I'll just come back here and work out later... so till later...

L8a Days...

No work again today...

So I guess its pretty shitty out!!! Almost all the schools are cancelled, government buildings,,, everything! so that only means 1 thing... Time to train today... Although I think im gonna go back to bed for a few hours at least.... I think Im really going to try to work out a lot today!!! But i'll keep ya posted as the day goes on.... I guess I have a few things to report from yesterday,,, but for now i'll cut this short... So yeah, till later....

L8a Days....

Bored!!!

I know, I should be working out or something... But I'm just not in the mood... Don't know what it is... but yeah,,, don't wanna.... I hopped on the Elliptical this morning for 10 mins,,, felt like a half an hour,,, its kinda wierd that thing... I know I'm still getting a workout, but its just wierd... SO yeah,,, did that for a bit this morning... then I just didn't feel like working out... hit the bag for like 3 mins,, but didn't wanna do that either... ah well, maybe something later....

So here's my dilemma.... I'm bored out of my skull obviously... and I don't wanna work out... and I have at least half an hour before dad gets home, if he is even coming home today(pretty sure he has to ref a bball game today)... and yeah, I have nothing to do.... So yeah,, fuck it, ,,, just decided I'm going for a smoke... be back in a bit...,, yeah I'll prolly just write something up later on.. so yeah ,for now thats it...

L8a Days...

Training is going good....

So I ended up working this morning for a bit... at least it got me awake nice and early, and pretty active.. then I got home at noon, had a little smoke, then ate... Then I took a nap from 3:30ish till 5 ish... and thats when the workout for the day started... I went on the elliptical for prolly 20 mins or so... Then I stretched for a bit... then chilled for a little till supper. Then prolly half an hour or so after supper I went for a walk,,, and that was a nice warm up... Then I stretched again for a little bit before I hit the heavy bag for prolly a good half an hour or so... So yeah,, it wasn't much of a workout, but atleast I did something today... Something is always better then nothing. Especially that elliptical!! it worked my legs surprisingly well!!! in a wierd way... worked the upper legs a lot... So yeah, thats good,,, and thats about all i gotta say for this one....

L8a Days...

More random shit... Can't sleep...

So here it is.. 4:15AM.... just had a little smoke,,,, figured it'd help me sleep... so far nothing... So yeah I figured I'd write a blog... Yup... Why not... I may just try to write in here more often(Yes I said it again!!! For the millionth time!!!) Anyway... I may just try to write in here to update about my kickboxing training... I think I've decided that thats what I'm going to be focusing on for the next while... It is only 2 weeks and 5 days away, but still,, I gotta start doing a fuckload more training.... Speaking of tho, Dad bought an elliptical today... So thats cool.. Thats where I can do all my "running". Cuz my cardio is shit! uhh,, all of me is shit these days... Like today at kickboxing, There was only 3 of us there.. Me Shawn and Kersti, and Barry of corse... so we just a quick warm up, then started to spar... and at first yeah it seemed like a good, fairly light sparring session... But then I don't know what the fuck happened, but we all just started beating the shit out of each other... Like Shawn royally laid the beat down on me for a round or 2, and it fucking hurt!!! Like just the other day i was saying how I hadn't gotten hit with a good body shot in a while... Well I got it yesterday!!! Holy crap it hurt! Knocked the air right out of me, I had to take a knee for a sec. Which I don't think Barry liked too much. But I did get up pretty quick and finished the round. So hopefully that showed something. Then in another round with Kersti, I tried Anderson Silvas Power foot jab to the face... And surprisingly enough, it worked! lol. Pretty sure all of us were super surprised!!! cuz I heard shawn say Ohh!, and Kersti stopped right away... But yeah, its a sweet kick!,, Tried it on Shawn a few times, but he dodges well... Then I think it was the round right after that that Shawn and I went at it, and man, both of our noses are prolly paying the price today... That was the worst nose bleed I've had yet in kickboxing... Like when he originally cracked me, it felt like a bunch of snot came out of my nose,, but then Barry told us to stop and grabbed a bunch of paper towel and wiped off my face, and the whole paper towel was just red with blood... I was kinda like, wow, shit man, thats a lot of blood that just came out of my nose! Anyway, so I think thats when I hit shawn like dead on in the nose with a superman punch. It was pretty sweet,,, but thats about all the good shots I got in today... I don't even think I had any head kicks,,, besides the power foot jab to Kersti's face...

So yeah,,, I'm pretty sore,, a little bruised up... and not feeling that great.... But on the upside,,, when I was feeling all shitty and stuff after kick boxing today. I checked my e-mail, and there was an e-mail from Barry... It was weird because he never sends me personal e-mails... its always a mass e-mail he sends to the whole class... but the second I saw this one and saw that it was all to me, I got a little happy. Basically he just kinda tried to complement me and say that he keeps forgetting that I'm a "pre nov" and that I haven't ever fought before... So that was pretty cool... and he also gave me 3 DVD's of past fights to watch.. so that was pretty cool,,, I've watched 2 disks already... Pretty good...

Alright,,, Done with the kick boxing news... what now...

4:32.... I kinda wanna sleep,, but I don't think I'll be able to get back to bed now...

Uhhh,,, my everything hurts! seriously,, my nose hurts,,, like even when I try to sleep and I roll over and my face goes into the pillow, it still hurts the nose!.. and both of my elbows are just killing!! They keep clacking together when I block hooks!!! And my hip!!! shawn gave me a wicked kick that landed straight into my hip... and I feel it every time I bend... and yeah it hurts a lot still...Sorry,,, got back to kick boxing again there.. but thats what its from....

So I think I'll prolly start smoking a bit more now... well, not like I haven't been for the past few weeks, but still... Its shitty tho, cuz I was kinda doing alright for a while there... and I didn't even really miss it... But yeah, its such a good stress relief... Like earlier today,, after kick boxing, and getting home, and showering and shit,, I was still in a shitty mood,, so I went for a walk,,, had a little puffedy puff.... Had a great rest of the walk around the block... and just felt so much better!!! uh, just so good... totally forgot about all my stupid problems.. and just chilled...

OK... its 4:40... I'm going to try to go to bed... Hopefully I'll fall asleep by 5, sleep till 6,, call work, go to work for 6:45... work all day, then work out all night,,, then sleep in on Tuesday, cuz it's supposed to be a snowday!!! then work out all day...

Yeah, so that's the plan.... I'll try to update tomorrow....

L8a Days...

Long time.. but one focus...

Yeah,, I know,,... Its been forever... but I just wrote this crazy write up,, and I have to put it down somewhere... so here it is... I haven't edited it at all,,, so yeah,,, here goes... Hopefully I'll read this 2morrow when Im sober.. see if it helps/hinders me at all...

ITs 4:25AM,, I just got in from Chillin with Emily for the past 2 hours... we

talked about alot of shit!!! It started off with us being all like "lets talk

to each other like friends,, not as ex bf/gf shit. but just friends.. So that

went well for a little bit...

I really don't know what to think... Like I saw this coming and I thought about

it alot... but now that I have the confermation,,, its just shitty... like I hate

to think about something,,,, but to find out its true,,, thats just not right!!!

I feel soo shitty right now...It just doesn't make sense!!!! I saw all of this

coming... and it still isn't making anything easier or better...

I also leanred that Emily and I are done.. and will be done forever.. she made it

very clear that this was our one and only shot.. and now its done... we're done

and we will never have another chance to try again...

I guess its nice to know for sure... because we've both wanted to beleive that

it could/would work... but both knew that it wouldn't.... now just to know that

we can't keep doing it anymore... We're done.... We just have to move past it

and realize that its not meant to be...

Anyway... I think we talked about alot of other stuff.. but now thats all I can

think about... its just wierd to take it all in now.. Cuz she's obviously has

been thinking this way for a while now... but me,,, its just been speculation..

but for her to confirm it... Yeah... I just feel empty.... wow... And she was

soo surprisingly strong about the whole thing!!! like shit... it seems like this

hurt me a million times more then it hurt her!!! And thats just not what I

expected at all!!! I was hoping that this would be pretty easy to get over..

and I could get past it fairly quickly... And now look at me... its been over

a month,,, and Im just now getting to the real truth.Im still hung up on her...

she's past me already,,,, and Im still hung up.... ..

I feel like I need to puke.... what an awful feeling!!!!

I guess I should go to sleep.... its 4:45 AM... kickboxing at 1... that should

be interesting.... Lets see what Emily has to say 2morrow.... Too bad I was the

drunk one, and she was semi sober....

Fuck it... Glad I wrote this down...

There goes... Good night!!!!

Fuck