life sucks

Man, shit yeah, like life really does suck!!!! Fuck, like if I didn't have this vacation booked and payed for already, I'd prolly be going just that much more insane!!! Like, fuck man, I dont even know why I'm so mad right now,, I just don't like the way my life is going right now..... It's not like I have it rough, or anything, its just that I feel like I'm at a standstill..... Like I should be moving in some direction, but I'm not,,,, I'm just working day by day, with no plan, and no goals.... I've even been rethinking this move to PEI thing... I've been trying to think of where it would get me,,, and I really don't think it'll lead anywhere good.... so, I'm thinking that, if Dave comes back in around 15ish days, and he says that this camp thing is good shit, and he can get me in,,, I'll do it... just because I'm sick of this shit... just going nowere at work, never ever getting a raise and shit... all the stupid new safety bullshit....

Maybe I should see a doctor.... Man, how fucked up would it be if I went to a doctor and they told me that I was like mentally fucked up.... then I'd get some crazy meds, and be a fucking robot for life.... man, that doesn't sound so bad... getting meds to make you happy all the time.... I think that'd be fucked, but right about now,, that would be soo great..... Fuck... Anyway, I'm heading out, I'm gona have a shower and get the fuck to bed.... L8a Days...

Long Time No Blog...

Yeah, so wow, its like November 12th.... 6 months to the day of my 21st B-Day..... Wow... and yeah, I have no idea what the fuck that means.... nothing really..... So anyway,, its been a while since my last blog... and wow, I guess alots happened in that time... my computer is busted right now... fucking piss off but whatever... I bought a new mother board cuz thats what Brad thought the problem was,,, but it wasn't so now I'm not sure what I'm going to do about it...... I think I'll try to sell it for parts throughout the house.... Anyway, I really just wanted to write down "my plan" for the next little while.... Well lets see... I'm going back to PEI here in a month for my Christmas Vacation.... Then I think Im going to be coming back by New years eve, so I can come back here to Edmonton to celebrate.... Thats the plan as of now anyways.... Then I'll come back here to Edmonton, where I'll work and bust my balls off to work as much as possible to make as much as I can until May... my b-day.... to which I'll move back to PEI, to which I 'll hopefully have enough money to buy a car and maybe eventuelly get my own place.... I think I'd like to move back to PEI nowish... I am starting to miss it... honestly.... It kinda sucks, cuz theres so much more out here... but with some much more good, there comes soo much more bad too... I miss going out at nights... I miss bike riding, and walking thru the woods.... I just miss PEI.... So thats the plan plan for now... I wan tto save some money so I can move back and not work for the first few months,,, just chill with my parents for a little while.... Anyway, I'm done for now... I'm just going to go back to my room,, litsten to some music from my old Ipod... and sleep in all day 2morrow till night shift... Oh yeah, I'm back on night shift... L8a Days...