3 months left....

Almost to the day, well I think we're planning on leaving May 1st, but I dunno for sure.... SO yeah that leaves me 3 months left here..... its only 7 more paychecks, so I gotta start saving most of it. Anyway, we got that qp this past weekend, and man its been an interesting few days. Since I had half of it to myself, I can smoke freely when ever I want. Reminds me of the times Jarod and I used to have.... Man, I really hope things go the way I have them planned right now.... Uhh,, anyway, im kinda tired, and I still have to go to the bank, so im gonna go do that right now, so yeah, till the next time L8a days...

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Well, I couldnt think of a title for this blog, cuz Im really just going to rant about random shit, well sorta I gotta make a phone call back to PEI at 6, infact, I should prolly get heading now..... But fuck it...
So I Jarod wrote me back!!!!!! Got a nice little update from him bout his new place and stuff,,, sounds like hes doing well!!! ROCK ON!
Anyway,,, Things are going to get really complicated really fast I think.... Why does this always happen? things start off soo well, nice and easy, And then,,, all these choices and dicisions.... Fuck,, Anyway, When I was walking out of work 2day, Dale(head boss) was posting a notice on the bulletin board saying anyone who wants to do the night shift(4PM-2AM) can do so and will get a 5$ raise! SO...... Dave and I are going to do that as soon as we get his god damn car fixed! Fuck, 17$$ an hour wouldnt be bad at all, lol, fucking awsome I mean.... But yeah, thats not really a hard choice at all.... The hard part is.... My supervisor/boss Quy asked me if he left innotec, and he could get me a job with him, if I'd go... Of corse this isnt for sure yet, and I dotn even know what the job is.... But he said it would be well worth it($$$$). So,, i'll have to look into that... BUT.... If I do that, Id feel really bad about leaving in like 3 months to go back to PEI.... SO i'd prolly just end up staying here in Edmonton , and not go back at all...... Quy also said that this is a really good oppertunity, and I could make a career out of it.... so.... I dont know what to think now..... Uhh,,, then the whole Jarod thing about going to see him in the summer comes in to play, and I really want to see him aswell as the rest of the old gang sometime.... Uhhhh,,, Fuck, I'lll see how everything works out... Im sure I'll make the rong dicision like always.... But .... but nothing I guess....
Ohh yeah, something I was going to mention a fucking long time ago, but i've been forgetting every day since I got back up here.... MUSIC!!!!! Fuck, I downloaded a few songs by Anberlin, The Used, and a few others that I cant think of off the top of my head.... But yeah, its wierd cuz Every time I listen to anything by Anberlin it always reminds me of Laura... I know its still pathetic how im still a big hung up on her but what ever... Anyway, back to the song. Its wierd cuz I've never heard any of Anberlins songs outside of Lauras car,,,, so the second a song starts I just space out and all I can see is the inside of her car, just her and I, sitting and talking like we always did..... man, what is rong with me? I know its all over, and im dead sure shes not going to want to talk to me again,,, yet I still cant get her out of my head,,, Does that make any sence at alll? Ahh well fuck it... Anyway, Its like 6 now, so Im going to get going, I know theres something IM forgetting, but I'll try to write an other blog either friday or saturday,,, hopefully sometime next week at the latest... Anyways, L8a days...

more stuff..

Ok.... I thought of a shitload more things to write down 2day, and like always I managed to forget most of them..... But one I do remember is :
- When I go home in May, I have to find Jack Mackay. I hope he still lives beside Ryan, cuz it'd be cool to catch up with that guy sometime... See if he wants to go catch a beer or something... I dunno why I thought of this, but the bus ride always makes me think of random shit.... Anyway,,, Yeah, Jack Mackay... Look him up when I get back.....
- Uhh,,, I know there was something about Jarod, that I was thinkign about 2day.....uhh, fuck, so I have the shittyest memory... and I didnt even smoke after work 2day.... So the last time I smoked was at like 5:30 AM this morning..... and it looks like I wont be able to smoke any more till payday.... We're(Chris, Geoff/Dave, and I) all out of money.... But I ended up paying the phone bill yesturday!!! So thats out of the way... Now all we have for bills is the Epcor bill(electricity). and its only like 75$.... Ohh shit, yeah, thats what I forgot, I forgot to get dad his 200$$$... So i'll prolly end up calling hime sometime soon and ask him if its cool if I wait till Payday to pay him... shouldnt be a problem,, but ya never know......
Ohh yeah, somethign else I was going to write down yesturday... I GOT MY LIP PIERCED AGAIN!!!! So theres this tattoo/piercing place on our bus route on the way home from work.... So I figured why not check it out sometime.... So Dave and I went in there last Friday and got some stuff done.... Dave got his librette, and I got my left side done again.... Anyway, the piercer was cool as fuck(and hot as hell) So Dave and I figured we'll go back often.... I plan on getting the other side of my lip pierced, and getting my tounge pierced 2 more times..... So yeah thats that... Piercings ROCK!!!! and my work doesnt care about them, so I can get what ever I want... Awsome eh?!?!? Anyway, yeah, I think thats about all that I can think of now..... SO yeah, till maybe 2morrow,.... L8a days....

stuff...

So its Monday.... I left work at 4, and now im at the library at 5:30.... On my list of things to do before i go home is a)pay phone bill. b) Transfer 200$$ into Dads account. c)Write Jarod an e-mail. And I think thats bout it....
So I guess my dad is goign to sign Dave and I up for this firefighting corse at hollen college next year.... It sounded really cool... and I am kind of excited for it ... but on the other side.... I really hope I dont get accepted... Infact im goign to call dad 2night and tell him not to sign me up.... Cuz next year I wanna just relax, work, and do my own thing,,,, Thats why I have to send Jarod an e-mail and ask him if he wants to share a place with me next year... Im going to try to convince him for as long as I can, until he acccepts... Now that I've been thinking about it for a good while, all I want to do next year is chill with Jarod.... I want to just enjoy being around and with my friends.... Fuck,, I dont know why I came out here... Well,, I know now that im going to be here for the next 4 months anyway, so im going to try to save a good chunk of money to bring back and start a good apartment with J-rod(if he wants to).... And we'll see from there, fuck it.... But yeah, so soo far from my experience here in Alberta i've learned, that you should never leave your friends... Even if you pretty much dont talk to them, atleast your only half an hour tops from seeing them.... Not like a days plane ride from here... Fuck. fuck fuck.... But yeah,,, anyway, im kinda losing my train of thought, and stufff... so Im going to get to that e-mail to J-Rod,, then do the rest of my runnign around..... Anyway, L8a days...

3 good days of work

Well sorta.... Monday and Tuesday were boring as fuck, but 2day was a lot better, and I got some good hours in too, 11 on monday, 9 on tuesday, and 10 2day... So Im hoping if I get hours like that for the next week and the rest of this one, my check should be a grand or so.... Sooo hopefully it'll all be good... Anyway, I dont reawlly have any time to try to say all the things I was thinking about for the past 3 days,,, well a few in point form, i"ll ellaborate later.
- Next time I see Jarod, I want him and I to have a little "race".... I want to time him and I trying to smoke 1 as fast as we can,, lol, see how fast we could burn one down....
- Uhhh, stop in and see Jarod on the drive home from Edmonton in May....
Uhh, shit, I had soo many more,,, Anyway, Im going to head out, Daves making me some steak for supper 2night so,,... no way am I being late for that,,, L8a days...

Back in Edmonton....

Yeah, so I got here(Edmonton) yesturday at around 4:00, Then Barett and Chris picked me up and we went out for some supper then just chilled at home for the rest of the night... The place looked just as messy as I left it,(thats right, Chris didnt clean anything, not even any dishs, Nor did he buy any food, and we were almost out of foood. lol) But yeah I did all the dishs and cleaned the counters and stuff, but 2night we're going to have to clean the floors and the garbage can, aswell as clean up all the cans and bottles....
Anyway... I guess I dotn realy have much else to say,,, Its friday and I dotn think we're doing anythign at all 2night, which is awsome cuz Im kinda tired anyway... But yeah, I had a whole shitload of things I was thinking about all day 2day and now that i have the open computor for me to let it all out, I cant remember it! Fuck! Anyway, fuck it , im out, L8a Days...

Ohhh yeah 4 hours leftish...

Yeah so its 1:13AM on January the 5th,,, Im very toasted after chillin with Pat, Jamison, Anna, and Tony, pretty awsome time I must say,,, but as of now I must go and watch "The Incredibles" with Tony, I'll be back here later 2night to write stuff hopefully.... anyway till then ,l8a days...

8 hours.....

SO I just came back from a walk with Mom.... Wow, what aboring walk!!!! I really dont think she wants to hear anything I have to say.... Anytime I started a new subject and started to talk about it, shed call for the dog, or change the subject.... Every single time!!!! and she spoke for most of it. So anyway I just listened, let her talk. If shes "soooooo concerned about me" you'd think shed listen to me? Or is it rong to assume that? Anyway, My parents will never know or understand me, no matter how hard they "try". Fuck, it could take me maybe half an hour to an hour max to fill my mom in about my life.... To make her understand why I never spoke to her and my dad for most of high school, or why I moved out of their house the day after graduation, or why I wore that god damn wrist band all the time... Fuck how can they be soo god damn stupid!?!?!?! And yes im using stupid because they knew something was going on..... They knew.

Ohh fuck offf... man, I hate getting into these moods but they are soo hard to steer cleer from!!! Fuck, like I wouldnt think soo negatively if I wastn constantly reminded of it.... I was soo sad when I woke up this morning cuz I realised it was my last day here, so I went on MSN and changed my name to "leaveing 2night" and just stuff like that.... And like 2 ppl have talked to me all fucking day... So you know what? Fuck them... fuck them all, who the fuck cares.... There wasnt many ppl there for me back in high schoool, and theres none now... the only ppl I can rely on is my brother Dave... Fuck I want to stay out in Edmonton now. Fuck coming back to PEI.. what the fuck for? Oviously theres no difference in being here or not, so why not? Ahh fuck it, I could just be full of shit and the 20 some ppl I sent taht e-mail to could have been really busy and just didnt have time to call me. Or maybe they didnt want to spend those 40 cents a minute for like 2mins while they talk to me.... Or maybe.... Just maybe they dont want to talk to me.... lol, maybe... Fuck maybe, I already know of a couple ppl who've done that.... Ahh well, I guess you live and you learn eh? Well I dont want to learn anymore.... whats that tell you bout the living part.... Fuck it all, Thats right, I said it again, FUCK LIFE... Who gives a shit... Now mom;, when you read this, dont bother calling me, because if I pick up the phone and you say anything related to this blog, i'll hang up right away. Because I know you wouldnt of had any idea of anything that I said in this blog, if I didnt write it in the blog... You'd Never Ever know!!!!! NO IDEA!!!!! Anyway, Tony's home now so Im going to go do something, anything to get my head out of these clouds.... L8a days

11 hours left on PEI.....

Yeah, so its almost 6PM, on January the 4th,,, I have to be at the airport 2morrow morning (January 5th) at 5:00AM...... How sad is this!?!?!?! I've been home for a week and a half, and I havent seen half as many ppl as I wanted to.... I know I shouldnt be surprised, but only 2 or 3 ppl actuelly called me this holliday out of the like 20some that I wrote an e-mail to. Yeah, thats right, out of like 20 some people that I sent my phone number and all that to,,, 2 or 3 of them actuelly called..... What are friends for eh!?!?! Well atleast my "old" best friends called..... Yeah I said old just cuz I havent been with them in 2 months... Yeah, so Jarod, Jamison, and Pat are the main ppl I've been hanging out with all this break... Jarod more so as of lately.... But yeah, I guess im not really mad or anything, it was just kinda the same thing all break... (how much weed can I smoke with my old buddies) Really tho, thats what I did with Jamison and Pat the first like 3 days I was here, then the next 4 was with Jarod.... then yesturday was just kinda nothing, and 2day soo far too.... Fuck I hope someone wants to do something 2night... fuck, I feel like I should be doing something but I dont know what..... I havent packed yet,,, that could be it, but fuck it, I'll pac the morning of my flight like I did last time I left.... maybe add a few songs to my I-pod, but other then that I dont really have anything else I need to do. Although I would like to call a couple ppl..... just to say hello, maybe even see if they can or want to do somethign 2night. Ahhh well, we'll see how it all unfolds.... anyway, im prolly going to write a HUGE HUGE blog 2night about my whole trip and stuff,,, bbut yeah, till then I guess l8a days...

Went through my old stuff....

Man, going through my drawers is fucking wierd man!!!!! Opening my drawers for the first time in 2 months..... It was pretty cool I must say, found a whol bunch of old shit that I used to love... I think im going to bring a bit of it back to Edmonton when I go tho.... A couple pieces of paper with some deep writting on it could be nice to read every now and again.... Ohh yeah, when I was going the the drawers I found Emilys "Folder". that Big Envelope with all the things I've ever giving her.... I might read some of it later,, but As for now, I feel kinda shitely depressed... Its a long story, and I'll prolly write it all down before I go back to Edmonton, but its mostly just conserning when I left..... Yeah, long story... make sure I remember taht.... anyway,.,, 2 nights left on PEI, includeing 2night... fuck, anyway, l8a days...

New Cool Song....

SO I found this new song, well to me anyways, and man that song ROCKS!!!! Welll the first little part to it anyways, its all spoken,,, anyway, the song sounds cooler then the words look, but try to understand...

THE USED LYRICS

"I'm A Fake"

[Spoken:]

Small, simple, safe priceRise the wake and carry me with all of my regretsThis is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and healsAnd I am not afraid to dieI'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.I want the pain of paymentWhat's left, but a section of pigmy size cutsMuch like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucksWould you be my little cut?Would you be my thousand fucks?And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquidTo fill, and spill over, and under my thoughtsMy sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutterI'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heartLove is not like anythingEspecially a fucking knife

ANyway, thats the cool part, sounds wicked.... I just thought I shoudl put it on,,, anyway,,, Yeah, so last night I wrote a blog that really really sucked, but Tony was trying to sleep in the next room and I didnt want to wake him with my loud typing.... ANyway, I should have wrote soo much last night, Fuck I was thinking alot... anyway, most of it was all about how badly my timing was to move away and stuff... Im sure i'll go into it someday soon before I go back... anyway I gotta head to town, take care of some banking shit, but I'll write more later.... L8a Days

Quick Hello

just writting in here to say hey. its only like 3:06AM, and Dave and TOny just went to sleep, so I guess Ishould go to bed now too,,,, FUck only 2 days left on PEI... fuck... L8a days...

Ok, lets try a somewhat sober recap....

Soo...... Its sunday morning... well Afternoon at 2:42PM... I just got up not too long ago... and honestly I feel great!!!! I thought I'd be pretty hung over or something, but nah...... Anyway,,, so im going to try to calculate how much i've smoked in the like week i've been here.... Lets see the night I got here we(Pat, Jamison and Jarod) smoked like 4-5-6 g's not much, but a good start, then the next day Boxing day,,, we smoked around 13 or so g's, then the day after that the 27th, I finished up the rest of weed... so of corse the 28th(I had to mooch alot)and thursday the 29th too, but then Josh and I bought a half between us, and smoked all that friday.... then yesturday (saturday)same thing, me and this Luke guys, maybe his name was luke I dunno,,, anyway, we split an other half yesturday,and finished all off before New years..... Yeah, so thats pretty much my recap on how much weed i've smoked in the past little while.... good shti, and there was some other things in there,, but they dont need to be mentioned.... Ohhyeah, back to New years Eve.... man that was fucked up, man, theres a retartedly large amount of horny women on PEI... well Jarods friends anyway,,, I guess 2 chicks made out with me last night.... Unfortunetly I kinda only remember the 1st chick(kerry I think her name was) ANyway, she was cool as fuck, even had her toung pierced 3 times(that was very interesting....).... Then what else happened.... Ohh man, was Jarod ever messed!!! Never giving that guy that stuff again!!! lol, Very emotional.... anyway, hes cool. So yeah, that pertty much recaps my vacation till now.... SO yeah,, I hope to see alot more ppl in the next 3 days then I have already.... but I dunno, we'll have to seee... anyways, l8a days...

New Years Eve

Yup, so its all over now, at 4:46AM... I dunno what happened, or whats going on right now, but it was a crazy wierd night, i'll try to talk about it 2morrow,, im at Neales place now, but I might catch a cab home, l8a days...