Weekend not off to a good start....

FUCK DUDE!!!! Like what the fuck here!?!?!?! I wanted this fucking weekend to rock! to just be a fun party weekend... and now look... Fucking Teri is all pissed off at me, ,, my work is being gay,,,, J-Rod is really getting on my nerves... and I don't even have rent all worked out yet!!!! FUCK!!!!! ok, lets try to start from the begging here,, although its going to be hard considering all the shits that's just come out of the blue....


Teri.... ok, so I figured stuff we was still cool and going well and stuff until last night.... Teri came over for the night... I figured cool, one last time to see her before my weekend, figured she'd give me something to think about all weekend kinda thing( I know it sounds stupid, but I figured she'd do something crazy in bed or something, just to "remind me" how awesome she is(although i already know, and I won't cheat on her(to which I'm pretty positive she thinks I'm going to do, although I'M NOT!!!)))..... So yeah, what really happened was she was in a shitty mood when she arrived because she got a speeding ticket on the way over( I totally understood because that really would have pissed me off if it happened to me, so I understood....) So that was kinda shitty, put a little damper on the night, but anyway, things went well, we stayed up for a while, talked a bit, did our thing,,,, then went to bed... then in the morning just before shes about to leave, she totally breaks down and started going on about... Jesus, everything!! Now I'm not here and writing this to bash her, honestly, she had many many great points... but some of it was.... uhh, i don't know,, I can't overly remember what I was getting at there, but the point was, I'm not sure how she feels right now about me.... And that's really scary.... Like, I really do like the chick! shes the coolest fucking girl I've ever met! in every and any way, and, I'd love to tell her I love her and, I'd love to be with her, I'd love to move out with her and start a family with her.... Just not now.... It's way too fast for me... I know we've been going strong and steady for a little while now,, its just me... I just can't get by the fact that once I do move in with her, that.... that.... I don't know how to explain it, not like .... It's not like its a "tie down" you know.... It's more of a commitment that I can't do.... I'm too much of a loose cannon kinda thing... I don't like the feeling of being "tied down" in any way... I know that you could make the argument that I'm "tied down" now because we are going out... but I don't think so.... Like if worst ever came to worst, and we broke up.. that'd be it,, ya know, but if we lived together, and then we broke up... one of us would have to move out, or maybe both because rent would be high,... I don't know,,, its just too soon I think...... Like,,, shit, I've been having weird thoughts lately about moving back to PEI... and honestly, if I could ever find a job on PEI that would pay really well,,... I'd move there in a second...... Money is all that's keeping me out here.... STOP!!!!! it may be all that is keeping me here,, but don't think that I wouldn't do my fucking hardest to get Teri to come with me.... I don't want to leave her,,,, that's what I don't think she understands.... i really want her in my life... I want her to be my girlfriend.... wife for frig sakes!!!! It's just I'm too wild of a person that I don't want to ruin 1, let alone 2 peoples lives..... I dunno, some of that may not of made 100% sense,,, but I'm sure I could explain it by talking.....
Anyway,, I don't want to go on too much about Teri, she doesn't like when I talk about her in these so....

Work is being gay and J-Rod getting on my nerves kinda fall all into one category.... Well,,, Ok, what happened today was there was this huge piece that we had to finish 2night..... Of course Danilo and I were chosen(obviously out of J-rod, Cooper, Danilo and I)to start it.... then Cory asked for J-Rod and Cooper to continue it from 2-5am till Sal comes in.... so I figured cool, they'd watch how Danilo and I sprayed it, then would do it as we did.... but J-rod, the fucking coolio that he is.... The second Danilo and I stopped at 2AM, started to do his own things.... he turned off the fans and said that Cory told him not to cool his pieces or it would crack.... Now I know Cory said something along those lines,,, but I know that he meant cooling with the air hose..... Now everyone was in agreeance because we're all sprayers besides J-Rod,,,, All of us have probably around 100 spraying hours (Danilo has like 3 years on Coop and I tho), and what does he have? fucking 18 from the last job he did last fucking week!!!
Anyway, totally lost my train of thought... I'm going to now have a shower... but long story short... from now on, I'm not going to give J-Rod any advice or help, so when ever he breaks shit, it'll be all his own fault.... Because I tried to help him and he said some stupid shit about Cory telling him otherwise, when I know J-Rod just misunderstood what Cory was saying, because I was there when they were talking.... Anyway,,, to the shower i go.... I'll try to update sometime this weekend, but I highly doubt I will.... so till the next time... L8a Days

J-Rod....

Holy Fuck...... I don't even know where to begin with this dude... Like Seriously, that fucking guy is driving me fucking crazy!!!!! Just every little fucking stupid thing he does, or doesn't do for that matter... Like, holy fuck dude, I've been fucking taking care of that fucking moron for ,,, wel pretty much since we met at like age 4. and the stupid fuck doesn't show any thanks whatsoever!!!! like shit dude, he was going to the store on Break one day last week, and I asked if he could get me 2 energy drinks., he said cool and got them... but when he came back he was like "thats 15 bucks dude"... I kinda looked at him funny for 2 reasons, a) I buy shit for him all the fucking time and never ask for it back, and b) The drinks are 2 for 10$$, so it woulda came to like maybe 11 $$... So anyway, that kinda really pisses me the fuck off, considering that when Teri and I went to the liquor store 2 weekends ago and asked everyone if they wanted us to pick them up anything, J-Rod asked me to get him a 15 pack of beer,,, and I fucking did.... Do you think I got any fucking money back from that? NOT A FUCKING DIME!!!! Then he has the balls to ask me for that 15$ I still "owe" him... Shit dude, I swear to god, if there was some crazy way to find out how much we've each spent on each other total through our whole lives, I'd be atleast double, maybe tripple what hes' givin' to me..... Ohh fuck, I could go on about this stupid mother fucker all fucking day long, but I know it would only piss me off more for work. and he pisses me off way too fucking much at work to be mad now... So, I'm going to smoke a quick bowl, relax and listen to some tunes.... till later... L8a Days

Komax...

Holy fuck, I am so tired!!!!! Dude, I spray 50 lbs of powder, BY HAND!!!! .. shit dude, that was the longest 8 hours of spray ever!!! dude and this piece is so weirdly shaped that you can't get the right stand off distance and everything... like what a bitch it was.... But anyway, I hope Paulie and J-Rod finish it 2night/2day. that means that there will only be 1 left after that...And it doesn't help that it needs to be worked on 24/7 till its done... Because if we let it cool less the 100 degrees the coating will crack... Fuck dude I hope J-Rod doesn't fuck it up... Danilo and I were so close to finishing too,,, I mean, I know the coat was very inconsistent, but we had some good build up of 16 tho..., that's 16 thousands of and inch... I know, 8 hours and we only put the thickness of 3 hair strands together on it... and how many pounds of powder was that? 60 mother fucking pounds!!!!! so you can probably imagine how big this thing is... its probably only around 8-9 feet tall. maybe 3 feet wide... but its like a quark screw... or 2 pairs of scissors ... Anyway, Very awkward to spray, and nearly impossible to keep the perfect stand off distance of 9 and half inches... and the angles... shit man, its just a hard piece... But its cool that I was picked to help do it. along with 5 others... 8 hour shifts, back to back, and we're hoping that'll be enough... then we get to do the next one right after... What a bitch eh?,, its just so loud, and hot, and dusty, and muggy, dirty, Like shit dude, its probably so bad just to stand in there, let alone exert yourself.. and Man, its a fucking workout!!!! Like, ok, well the gun shoots at 700 feet per second, so your trying to combat the pressure of that, plus you have to wave this thing at the piece while keeping a perfect distance away.... FUCK DUDE!!! 10 minute spurts are fucking exhausting!!!! Once you pass the gun to the other guy you walk to the huge fan and take off all your gear(Respirator, glasses, ear muffs, ear plugs, gloves)and sit in the nice cool night air for 3-4 minutes, then suit back up and go check the parameters, and powder flow, as well as the carrier gas gauges, and adjust them accordingly if needed....
Anyway, got distracted,, Brads home... so I'm gonna head out, L8a Days

Driving...

Yeah, so its 7:30ishAM,,,, I got home at around quarter to 7. Yeah, well, it was a good day at work and everything, except certain ppl piss me off, but hey, thats life, and my job, so who cares I guess... but yeah, so I thought Jake and Geoff were coming in for 4AM, so thats why I stayed,, but they didn't show up till 6AM, so that was kinda cool, had a nice little 14 hour shift 2day.... Then the fun started,,, J-Rod didn't go to work so it was just me there at 6AM, so Jake gave me the keys and said I could drive his car home. So I figured SWEET!!!! maybe he doesn't know that I don't have my lisence... But anyway, regardless of that, he let me take the car... and man, It felt soo good to drive again!!! Shit dude, I don't even remember the last time I drove a car... It's prolly been years... But yeah, anyway, I'm gonna ask J-Rod if I can drive to work later on 2day. Just cuz its fun... well, that and he can't drive very well... at all...

Wow, I just kinda got really stoned and did a whole bunch of other stuff and tottally forgot about this, but its now 8:09AM, so I'm going to bed... L8a Days

Update...

Word, so its Tuesday morning at 3:47AM,..,.. Got off work 2day at 2PM....
So my weekend!!!! Wow, it was a pretty good one, I must say... Twas a good one... So it was Scotty's Birthday on friday,, well Wednesday, but we celebrated on Friday. And boy did we celebrate it.... Fuck man, each of the islanders (Jake, J-Rod, Geoff and Myself) spent at least 100$. I spent 160, and Geoff too, I think J-Rod and Jake said they spent a good 120$ each..but shit yeah man it was a fun fun time!!!! Got super fucking hammered!!!! Even Cory showed up for a little bit... didn't have more then 1 drink I don't think tho... So yeah, that was a shitshow of a night!!! Even PTA Dave was there!!! it was a pretty damn good time....
Then Saturday.... Shit man, I can't overly, ohh way, UFC was Saturday... thats right! So yeah, that was kinda disapointing, drank and smoked a bit, it was alright I guess... Then Sunday I did fuck all all day, then Teri came over for the night so that was cool, then called in sick on Monday so we got to spend the day together which was cool, then she even drove me to work, it was sweet... Then I had a pretty crappy day at work, but its all good, 2morrow should be a better day... Anyway, I'm gonna go have a shower now... L8a Days

Ramble

So yeah, Its like 6:15 AM and I only got off work an hour ago... not too shabby, a nice little 13 hour day..., yeah twas pretty sweet, although Cooper was pissing me off again... shit man, hes such a lazy bitch man! Like, he thinks hes doing us a favor by coming in super early and stuff.. Fuck what an idiot, the time you put in isn't whats going to help, its how much you put into your time... Like fuck man, after he left work 2day, I checked out his time card(Ratty I know) and he spend 7 hours to spray 1 piece!!!! 1 PIECE!!! I know like 2 hours of that was setting up the DJ, , fuck man that dude's such a fucking moron!!! Like he just can't figure anything out for himself... Or he doesn't want to, Or hes too lazy, I dunno what it is, all I know is every time he has a problem, he never tries to fix it himself, he comes straight to me and gets me to tell him what I think, most of the time I just do what ever is needed when i know how, but even when I don't know how I still try to figure it out, and like 9 times out of 10, I figure it out... I know I could really move up in that place if I really put my mind and time to it, but sometimes those little things just piss me off to no end! that plus I can't figure out what I want to do in my life yet.... like sometimes I think( I was thinking mostly of this all day 2day at work) that I'd really like to buy a house with Teri, and and move in with her and Zoa, start a family, get my life on track and do all that... Like Man, it makes so much sense!!!! We love each other, we could get past anything I think.. I know it would be a huge adjustment to live with each other, but really, I know we could make it work! I really do.... but yeah, back to the making sense part,, Like we could both benefit greatly from it, in many ways... lets try to list some here

- Living with Teri and Zoa, I wouldn't smoke half as much weed, so I'd be saving money there, plus getting healthier from not smoking it.
- I'd also prolly be eating better (hoping that Teri would buy groceries if I gave her money for me)
- I could try to help Teri raise Zoa(if a) she wanted me to, or b) if she'd let me)
- We could start getting the things we've both always wanted, and really start to work towards building a family/home.


Alright I know I could think of more, but thats alright for now...
DUDE!!!!! I'm so excited to go home for this Canada Day, and really, its not for Canada so much, or the people I'm going to see, or the drinking and partying.... I just can't wait to see Westwood again...To walk down those paths, and go to the dock, and the picnic table, and see if that huge ladder thing Dave and I made is still there... , I dunno, just to see and feel, and be in that forest again.. I can't wait for it! I really do miss that place sometimes... A Vacation is going to be nice...



Hahahah, just had a total random thought!!! LOL , While I'm home, I think I may have to make a visit to Mikes Restaurant..... See whose still working there.. If I know anyone...

Dude yeah, the weekend of Canada is going to kick some major major ass!!!! Like shit man, I'm going to have to not sleep just to see everyone and do everything I want. Shit man, it should be a good fucking time!!!
Alright dude, I'm out for now.... I'm going for a shower then bed I think. till later... L8a Days

Few Days without an update....

Yeah, so its Tuesday morning... Uhh lets see, what Happened this weekend? Well I can't overly remember what happened on Friday, but Saturday we were going to throw this huge party, but no one really ended up coming, Pineau was here, and Michelle... Oh god Michelle.... She got soo fucking drunk and stoned man it was retarted... she claims she doesn't remember any of it, but really, I just think she doesn't want to admit to it all,,, But anyway, she was getting wayyy to frisky for me.... She was trying to wrestle/fight me like all night, and once she realised she wasn't going to beat me, she started to go for my balls, like punching, kicking, grabbing, whatever she could do. it was retarted! so I took her down to the ground, held both her arms behind her back and gave her a wedgy and told her to stop... seemed to do the trick... but that didn't stop her for the night, ohh no, she went for J-rod after that for a little bit, then Brad for a little bit... Eventuelly they got her to do shit on camera... kinda funny, except its my camera... lol anyway, I guess lots of ppl spreaded the word out and now I guess lots of ppl know. wow, I didn't see this coming, you do something really stupid when your drunk and stoned and ppl hear about it the next day... but it is kinda lame how fast it gets around man... Like serously, by the time I get to work at 4PM and Monday morning, everyone already knows about what happened at out has the past weekend.... Its soo shitty, I was on such a good streak of no drama for soo long... Life is soo good and simple sometimes... then other times it gets so friggen frustrating... But anyway, Sunday was a pretty good day, I felt like shit in the morning and afternoon for some reason,... but Teri came to visit me later that night to see a movie and stay the night, so it was a good night....
But yeah the movie... Mr. Brooks.... it was a pretty good movie I thought, I really liked it... it was pretty twisted and wierd, but I still liked it...

Uhh, wow, Teri and I have been talkign for the past like 25 mins man,,, Wow... I'm just gonna end this blog now... I'll write about this later.. 2morrow maybe, i'm going to bed... L8a Days, 5:43AM

Another day another dollar...

So yeah wow, today was a nice 9 and a half hour shift... just because we had the BBQ thing... so that was sweet, didn't need to bring a lunch.. But yeah that was kinda cool, but besides that , 2day was kinda frustrating... Fucking Cooper didn't put the plug to the hopper back on when he was done, so when I poured my powder into it, it just flew right through, and I wasted like 4 lbs of powder... 4lbs is 160$$$... I hope they don't get pissed at me, cause it was his fault really, fuck man, hes such a shitty sprayer, and blaster for that matter... Uhh, I'm too lazy to write, so I'm going to bed. l8a days

What A Weird Feeling....

Man... Its 7:28AM... I just got off work at 6AM.... got here home, at like 6:30, had a little smoke, drank a beer,,, and now I feel great!!! It's weird.... Like I worked a 14 hour shift, had 3 energy drinks, and still feel wide awake... then I had the smoked and the beer,,, now I'm just super mellow... It's nice... I kinda wanna do it 2morrow.... Although I don't think J-Rod will... I'll try to convince him tho, he says he wants to work a fucking lot, so here's his chance, its finally starting to pick up a bit at work...
Ok, wow, I'm kinda dozing off... I just gotta stay awake long enough to get in the shower after J-Rod gets out... then I'll crawl into bed, and go do bed.... I'm going to get some food before I do all of that tho, so till later... L8a Days...

Teri's Awesome!

Yeah man, I've been thinking about her all day 2day and really all I can come up with is that she's awesome! she really is. I a sked J-Rod and Jake what they thought too... and they both said they thought she was cool so thats cool, and I know my bro thinks shes cool too, and really, whats there not to like? shes just all around awesome!.. Anyway, just had to say it, I guess I'm really starting to appreciate her more... prolly after that stupid fucking movie I took her to last night, shit that was a dumb movie to take your girlfriend to go see,,., man I feel like such an asshole still!!! I'm going to have to do something big to make up for this,,, and I think I have just the plan....

Movie...

So Teri and I saw a movie last night... and If I had of been thinking for lets say, ohh I dunno 1 second I shoulda realized it was a stupid fucking movie to go see, but anyway, we went to go see that move "Knocked UP" and I must say, there was a few funny parts, but it really wasn't a good movie to pick... I mean, it just wasn't that as far as I'm going to go there, but you should get the just of it... I felt like a royal asshole all last night and this morning... she took it cool like she always does, and that just made me feel like more of an ass...
But anyway on to what happened this weekend...

Saturday we drank and partied a bit with Pineau and Dollar. that was cool they both came over this weekend.... Then we went swimming yeturday, it was a pretty good time I must say.... And ohh yeah I found a movie editting program on my computor which is cool so now I can start editing some movies!!! Word!,,, anyway, Im gonna get back to sleeping a bit before I get up for the day... till later ... L8a Days..

Off Work early again

Yeah, so I came home early 2night at like 11:30... it was alright cuz there was some ppl here drinking, but they all left at 1ish, but yeah, I was just chilling around, smoking and not drinking... but yeah, I just figured I should write, i don't even have anything to say really... besides ITS THE WEEKEND!!!!!