wow,....

I've been just talking on MSN for the past 45 mins, I havent even got a chance to write anything down in this... and I dont mean just 1 convo, like 4 or 5 at a time.. Wow, ok, finaly, just 1 now.... shit, not much time left.... Uhh, anyay, I cant remember what I wanted to talk about 2day anyway... Uhh fuck it, im going to Zellers to buy another Air Matress...uhhh, ohh god I cant wait to sleep on my waterbed... fuck, 6 months of a shitty airmatress every night sucks ass!!!!! especialy cuz its had a hole in for the past like 3 weeks, so I fall asleep on a fairly full matress then wake up to the solid floor.lol, anyway,, still cant wait for that waterbed..... L8a days

Getting sick of this Province

Well, Im not quite sure if its the Province, or if its just being with the same 2 ppl 24 hours a day!!!! Fuck!!!!! Anyway... like a month or so ago I was an inch away from strangling Chris,,, but Now its Dave!!! And its not just my nerves that hes gettign on, its everyones!!!! Yeah, the apartment is under his name, but we are all paying equal rent, so it shouldnt be a dictatorship in the apt(although it is, and Daves in Charge). Uhh, but anyway, Chris and Scooter just showed up, so Im gonna cut this one short and try to be back 2morrow to continue my rant....
-Ohh, and Emily if your reading this... You still didnt e-mail me back yet.lol.
-Better yet, who ever is reading this, please e-mail me, just to say hello or something, I'll write back... Anyways, till 2morrow... L8a days....

Duh!!!!

Yeah, so I ended up working later 2day, so I didnt get to the library till around 7:00, and of corse, there was soo many god damn kids!!!! So I left and when I got home I sat and stared at my phone for a while, trying to get the balls to call, but I didnt so I came back here and read my e-mail, found out I had nothing to worry about. So tahts all good and taken care of.... Anyway, I g2g now, I'll update someday soon... L8a days

The Countdown is on......

Well,,,, I am retartedly excitted now, even tho its kinda far away,,, its not out of sight.... Anyway... Uhh fuck, I hope this doesnt turn into the same as usual and I forget everything that I wanted to write down.... ok, lets try to make a short list ...
- Ohh yeah, Alright, my mind is really fucking with me!!! I dont knwo what the fuck to think.... ok.... Like around a month and a half or so ago I had like a week straight where I drempt of nothing but Emily, every night for a week... then it went away,,, but not before it got me thinking about her. so I thought and thought and thought for a while about her. Then like midway through last week I had a dream about Laura, then an other.... Then I started thinking about her, alot, alot alot..... So where does that bring me? Well, It shouldnt prolly bring me anywere, because I know both chances are blown with both of them. I know, I should forget and move on, they have right? Wel,,,, I've talked to Emily recently, and..... Shit, Im just not going to say anything right now on the subject..... And as far as Laura goes... Well, Im pretty damn sure that boat has sailed across the ocean never to return(big metaphor meaning, no chance in hell would she give me an other chance).lol, maybe I am feeling that J a bit, nahh its all in my head...
Anyway thats one subject Id really like to expand on, but Im still soo lost that I cant even try...
- Uhhmm lets see what else here....what else was I thinkginb about all week.........Uhh, well there you go, blank.... Well Im heading out, I might be back 2morrow... WAIIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 THATS WHAT ELSE~!!!!
-2morrow..... February 22nd......Hmmmmmm,,,,,, I was thinking about calling..... Then I figured that might not be a good idea, and it would be awkward as hell.... Then I was thinking about writting an e-mail..... But thats not really that thoughtfull at all. So, I could either call her(which I doubt i'll have the balls to do) and risk a maybe wierd conversation(if she even picks up), or write her a gay ass e-mail that she'll prolly not read and just delet without reading anyway.... so.....I dunno what to do... Ahh well, we'll find out 2morrow I guess.... Well, Im gonna head so till next time... L8a days

6:33PM Sunday February 12

So I wrote stuff down on a piece of paper cuz I was too lazy to walk all the way to the library... So here it is....

Only 3 months till my birthday.... Yes, just to think, in just 3 months from now, i'll be back home on Beautiful PEI and everything will be back to normal... I HOpe... Fuck!!! I know things wont just "go back to the ways they were". Who am I didding? Our once happy group that we had 3 years ago has fully trully fallen apart. Most of us dont even speek to each other anymore. Its sad but I seem to be the only one who still remembers and craves those days back!!! They all seem to have moved on and made new friends, yet im the only one not to make any. Fuck it kills to see all your best friends fall into different directions. I know its almost impossible for just on person to bring them all back together again, but, I have to try, I cant stay friendsless forever.
Anyway... I wonder,.... wonder if other people compare their everyday days as much as IU do... I dont think a day goes by up here out west that I dont "compare" it to PEI. And theres not a day that I'd rather be here over PEI... Except paydays... and days I get weed. and how sad is that? FUcking pathetic weed, and sad lonely money. Really I've actuelly found out that money doesnt make you happy~!!! I have a fair bit of money and im getting some of what I want with it, but i'd rather be home on PEI with my friends....
-Side note: I just remembered something 2day... Morgan is soo gay!! lol, "high of 75" by Reliant K just came on my ipod. She was the only person to ever tell me of that gay song. Its funny as hell though, and I think of her atleast once a day just because most of the songs on my ipod, she told me about. FUck, I sure hope sh e'll still talk to me when I get back to PEI, she is a friend I really dont want to lose. Fuck, but really, how many friends do you want to lose? Fuck, I didnt want to lose any of mine. Fuck and theres soo god damn many of them! I think of them every single day, and I cant even talk to them, I dont even have most of their numbers.....
7:00PM and "Wish you were here" soundtrack by Pink Floydd just came on... Im just going to sit back and enjoy all 44 mins to this and think of my good friend Pat...


Anyway, that was it, thats all I wrote on the piece of paper... thers not much else I really want to add to this blog besides.....
VALENTINES DAY SUCKS!!!!
Sorry, but I had to say it, I dont thin kI had 1 good Valentines day yet!~!!!! Anyway, yeah, thats it, I'll try to come back 2morrow, l8a days....

thinking bout stu.....

So.....I only have 11 mins left on this comp..... I had soo many topic that I wanted to cover, but I've been talking to some people and writting a few e-mails but now I seem to be out of time..... Anyway,,,, I guess I'll have to come back here 2morrow and fill the rest of my stuff in. But yeah, a little less the 3 months left!!!!! HOME SWEET HOME HERE I COME!!!!! FRIENDS I HOPE YOU HAVENT FORGOTTEN ME, BECAUSE YOU'RE ALL I THINK ABOUT....Love yas all, and I cant wait to see you all.... l8a days