Saturday Morning before the boat trip...

Well, sorta before the boat trip.... well yeah, its 5:27AM... I just woke up from a little "nap" I guess,,, I went to sleep at like.,, 11ish? so I guess I got a good 4-5 hours of sleep... anyway,, I'm not sure it was because I was excited or just really drunk/stoned that I passed out... but anyway it was good,, we went to Jakes place, played some frisbee with a bunch of ppl.. had a few drinks,, it was a pretty good time.. came back to the house,,, ordered some pizza,,, and once I finished that pizza,, I crashed hardcore!!! and thats what leads me up to now.... had a little puff a minute ago just to maybe get ready to go to sleep... I may just pack a few things now for the boat trip.. instead of leaving it till the morning, I could do pretty much all of it right now.. but man, am I ever friggen lazy right now... .,,, ... ,,, .. , man, I think its going to be a nice day out today.. its already bright out... 5:33AM and its bright!... I hope its like this the whole boat trip,,, but its best not to be optimistic... you'll only get let down... Anyway,,, I was lookin at myself in the mirror today, and wow is it ever fucking sad how fat I am now... once this boat trip is over, I gotta do some serious working out!!! no way do I wanna go back to PEI lookin like this!!! and I'm back down to 150lbs again... man I fluctuate way to much in weight!!! like every second or third day I'll way 4-10 lbs more or less... its fucked up..... so I'm also going to be starting an eating schedule!!! I have my workout plan already mounted on the wall... its not that extensive,,, but its pretty straight forward... I'm planning on working out 5 days a week, monday thru friday.
Anyway,, BOAT TRIP!!!,, so thats gonna get started today.. Dollar and I plan on heading out of here by like 1-2 PMish... get to Hinton for 4-5ish, proly faster on Dollars driving.. then Pineau wants to take us to Jeremy's to shoot off some guns, which would rock!!!! then we'll be staying there the night.. then heading out early in the morning!!! so yeah, I'm pretty sure I should be getting some sleep here now,, so with that, I'm going to end this one,, and I'm pretty sure I won't be writting any time on the boat trip, but ya never know,, our boat does have a dish, and I know a few of the people going are bringing their laptops, so maybe... maybe... anyway, till the next time... L8a Days...

Yup, its May... and Almost June...

Wow, ok, I know its been a while, but I have to write something down before I get into what the fuck I've been doing.... OK, so I just woke up like 10 mins ago... and man, what a fucked up dream!!! I haven't had many dreams in the past while, but this one seemed soo long,, I know when I try to explain it it'll seem pretty simple and short,,, but I know there will be lots of things that'll be left out... so anyway, here goes...
so I'm on PEI... and Im pretty sure I was coming out of the back side of the Charlottetown mall when I saw miss Emily T... and I can't overly remember what all we talked about, but we end up coming to a conclusion that we should go check out a movie because we have time, and we needed to do some catchin up....so I figure cool, we'll meet up and go check out a movie... so we both go our seperate ways, and agree to meet up at the theatres later... but when I go back there later, I end up waiting outside for what seems like forever(which actuelly turned out to be the whole movie long) until I see Emily walking out of the theatre by herself,, may eye contact with me, then just walk away,, didn't say or do anything, just walked away... I sat there pretty damn confused for a minute until I saw one of Em's best friends Irma.... So I make eye contact with Irma and she comes over to talk to me...we make some small small talk for a min or two, and then she asks me whats rong... so I ask if I could talk to her in private, to which she knows exactly what we're going to talk about.... so we start walking down the road and I can just see Em in her car watching us go by, but not saying anything.... by this time I'm really fucking confused...like really, what the fuck is going on here??? So Irma and I get to talking and thats about when I woke up... So my delema goes unsolved, and I wake up extremly confused.....

So yeah, I really don't know what to make of that whole thing,,, I mean it was a dream so it prolly didn't mean anything,, I just don't like not understanding what my mind is thinking...

Anyway, back to what the fuck is going on with my life right now... I DON'T KNOW!!! lol,,, so here it is May 24th... 1 week away from the boat trip... and I got laid off on Thursday.... So that means that I'll be getting no more income till I leave(which I still have no idea when that is) the boat trip still to pay off,, and I'm pretty much broke... I have something like $400 in my bank account right now, and that has to last me for atleast another month.. So yeah, things aren't looking too optimistic right now...

So yeah, anyway, Im about done writting for now... but ya never know, I do have lots and lots and lots of spare time now,, so I may be writting in this a fair amount in the next little while,.. till later..
L8a Days...