I hope theres no limit here...

Holy crap, Me and Morgan are having this crazy convorsation, im gonna try to copy and past it all in here, I just hope it fits, cuz wow, were tlaking about everything... sec....


Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
atleast you know when it'll end, yourlucky for that, im scared every day that Lauras gonna just randomly say its over
...Morgo... says:
would you want to just know when its going to end
...Morgo... says:
it sucks, it feels lik eyou have nothing to do anything for
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
YES!!!
...Morgo... says:
it feels pointless
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
better then have it unexpected and a shock,
...Morgo... says:
at least your happy until that one point
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
atleast I could build up to taking care of my self, if Laura breaks up with me, i'll be so lost and confused for like a good couple weeks till I get on track
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
I really do need her, I rely on her more then anything else right now
...Morgo... says:
I know you do, and I can assure you shes not going to braek up with you.. laura just gets in these moods
...Morgo... says:
and she gets outta them just as fast as she goes into them
...Morgo... says:
and she would have told me if something massivly was wrong, something bad like that
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
I hope so, because I really think something is up this time
...Morgo... says:
ill talk to her
...Morgo... says:
im going to write her an email anyways
...Morgo... says:
ill just ask her if shes ok and stuff
...Morgo... says:
shell tell me
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
thanks Morgan, I dont know what i'll do when you leave, , just so you know, I think your really cool
...Morgo... says:
well you can talk to me on msn, and write me emails
...Morgo... says:
haha and when that fails I'll read your blog and leave a comment
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
thakns, its wierd knowing that Lauras the only one who reads my blogs
...Morgo... says:
oh i read it sometimes
...Morgo... says:
haha i know what the address is
...Morgo... says:
I have a good memory
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
nice
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
I dunno tho morgan, I'm gonna be moving out on my own soon, and I dont think I'll be able to affor the internet right away, plus im thinking on moving somewere, anywere away by myself just to get away from everything, and if I do that, I prolly wont ever see or talk to you again,,,
...Morgo... says:
matt dont say things like that.. dont do the "ever agains"
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
or anyone for tha tmatter
...Morgo... says:
your not moving anywhere away from laura
...Morgo... says:
we both know that
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
no way, I've always wanted to start a new life
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
uhh, you dont understand....
...Morgo... says:
and whats going to be so different and great about it, you cant just run away from everything
...Morgo... says:
or forgeta bout it, its not that easy
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
I know it wont be easy, thats why I hvae to do it
...Morgo... says:
no you have get through it yourself
...Morgo... says:
because you can
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
Im glad you understand, but really, I have to get going on my own, ppl have been taking care of me way too long
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
and moving away where I know no one is the only way to do it
...Morgo... says:
whos taking care of you now?
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
Laura, Barett, Chris, anyone and everyone, and I hate it
...Morgo... says:
they arent taking care of you, they're your friends
...Morgo... says:
people you need
...Morgo... says:
no one can do anything on their own
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
need
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
I dont need help from anyone
...Morgo... says:
matt they arent helping you.. they're your friends
...Morgo... says:
how can you ever dream of having a life without friends like that
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
because eventuelly everyone leaves you
...Morgo... says:
no they do nt
...Morgo... says:
lauras been my best friend for as long as I can remember, and thats never going to change.. shes going to be standing next to me when I get married, and if she's still alive shes be standing next to my damn grave
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
your lucky then
...Morgo... says:
your real friends are never going to leave you
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
I've lost my 3 best friends all in one month, I havent had a friend for longer then 2 years
...Morgo... says:
you havent lost them matt, you're giving up on them
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
giving up on them? I called them and left messages, and they never called back,
...Morgo... says:
one rough patch with them or a few isnt the end of them world
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
txt them, call them, e-mail, they never called back
...Morgo... says:
well maybe they feel like you left them
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
well then maybe I want to leave them,
...Morgo... says:
well do you really want that? you sound like you dont
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
I dont need them, but I miss them soo much, I havent had any memorable time in the past 3 months, the only good memories I have, is with them, and now they're gone, its just kinda shitty when I look back and dont remember many fun times, but then I see pics of you and laura doing fun stuff, and makin all those memories and stuff, and I have nothing, its kinda depressing
...Morgo... says:
you have no memorably times from the last 3 months?
...Morgo... says:
are you kidding me
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
.... like?
...Morgo... says:
what do you call laura
...Morgo... says:
what do you call so many things
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
being free is just being able to do what you want when you want so everythign doesnt seem as crazy and spontaneou
...Morgo... says:
well nothing you did before was either
...Morgo... says:
its still all the same stuff matt
...Morgo... says:
you're just in a different environment
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
I dunno, it just seem ssoo different, the whole crowd is different, its like im a differnt person in the group, the guys I used to hang aroudn with used to rely on me, and fallow me, it was kidna like I was one of the higher up ppl, but in this groupe im just matty, the yougnest, Daves yougner brother, , its just wierd from going soo high up, to the lowest
...Morgo... says:
but dont think of it like that, its not the lowest
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
but it is
...Morgo... says:
do you not think laura doesnt rely on you
...Morgo... says:
or me?
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
FUck no, she doesnt need me, what do I do for her anyway?
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
Im useless to her,
...Morgo... says:
I can tell you, most of the time I've spent with laura this summe ris the happiest I've ever seen her in my entire life.
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
thtas just cuz she hasnt seen you in 1 full year, shes happy to see you, so shes happy around you
...Morgo... says:
She does need you, laura need someone like you whos so incredible to her, she tells me all the time how you're so amazing to her, and say the nicest things, that make her feel so great because laura really never feel good about herself and you do that for her, you make her feel wanted
...Morgo... says:
no shes not, laura could half the time care less ifI'm around, we see enough of each othe, we can be separated for that long
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
well thats cool, but I still think that she really does not rely on me, nor need me,
...Morgo... says:
matt dont think that
...Morgo... says:
dont think that at all
...Morgo... says:
your so important to her
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
I mean I do try to make her happy, but I really dotn know wha tto do, and I know shes oviously geting bored
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
how else do you explain her not having a good time the past like 4 times shes drank here, then she goes out for 1 night iwht a different crowd, the crowd from work, and gets royally trashed and has a blast?
...Morgo... says:
did she tell you herself she had a blast?
...Morgo... says:
laura just needs breaks
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
she said she had "soo much fun"
...Morgo... says:
we all do matt
...Morgo... says:
I cant be there all the time either
...Morgo... says:
but I always want to go back there
...Morgo... says:
and she does too
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
back where?
...Morgo... says:
back to you
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
I hope so
...Morgo... says:
she will dont worry
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
Morgan, its not that I dont trust you, but I relaly just cant see it in Laura
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
she just seem slike too strong of a person to need someone like me
...Morgo... says:
matt
...Morgo... says:
laura is not a strong person
...Morgo... says:
shes one of the most insecure people I've ever met
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
then she puts on a good show, cuz she really seems it to me and acts it
...Morgo... says:
she hides it, she trys to come across strong
...Morgo... says:
ive known her for so long
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
I dont htink I've ever got to her sensitive side then
...Morgo... says:
she barely ever shows it
...Morgo... says:
I've seen lauar cry I think once maybe twice in my life
Bebop - Drinkin by myself again.... says:
I wanna get into a really deep conversation with her sometime,

Anyway, thats really long enough, but it'll continue prolly. l8a days,